Learning to Trust

Have you ever come across someone and just knew they were the one... or could be? Then, after you started to fall for them, as you always do, you just couldn't get past the emotional walls you've built to protect you from yourself? Same here! I've started to realize that just about every woman goes through this, especially in the 21st Century. We get so wrapped up in our hurt and pain from past mistakes that we forget that NO ONE wants to pay for them, especially if they aren't responsible. I mean, put yourself in his shoes, how would you feel if after 6 months of being faithful, committed, loving, and more honest than you've EVER been before he STILL didn't trust you with his heart...at least not ALL of it? As women we get so distracted by how we feel that we forget that the men we love have feelings too, and just as we feel we deserve a WHOLE man, they deserve a WHOLE woman. So the next time you come across one of the good ones, and you really want to give it a shot, start by realizing that he is not the same guy from two years ago, two months ago, or even two weeks ago. I've learned the hard way that when you try to cut off your emotions and block out everything, no matter the reason, you prohibit yourself from feeling even the good things the way they were intended to be felt. When you accept that tomorrow is already gone, and that the only thing you can change is today, you'll feel a weight lifted off of you. Then, when that real, agape love FINDS YOU, you'll be free to experience it in its purest form, untainted by life’s tragedies and perversions.

"Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings." --Anais Nin